Poem: Ode to Ignorance

To boldly go where weaklings feared to tread,

I made my path, my fierceness ploughing through.

Stamped feelings and that treasure down instead –

It buried them. Distorted what and who.

 

Was I not innocent then?

 

My God. Hold me close, never let me know.

Pull me to your fullness. Stay, right here.

Together we are always and amen.

You say, “It’s all okay, I’m here for you” –

Then walk me up to where the view is clear;

You guide me to look back…

 

I was easier in my ignorance.

 

Now I see the harm strewn behind;

Evidence of my journey past is flaunted.

Now I see me, guilty as mankind.

On whom can I lay blame?  I do not want it.

 

I’m sorry. Though I didn’t know, I’m sorry.

 

I want to die to all the harm I’ve done

That counted and I didn’t even know.

Where ignorance begins to lead to death

Which path will lead me forward? I see none.

My regret cannot change past actions now.

 

At once, I’m told I can rebuild from here.

 

Through digging deep, I pour God’s Grace-cement

It’s spreading to re-lay foundations firm.

To build again from this, my deep repent.

 

My God, encompass this. And please confirm

You’re here and now, and then and there, and when…

 

YOU ARE. So you were in that time and place.

 

I see the spot so let me lay me down.

Lord, comfort and embalm me with your grace –

 

To rise again.